Had a weird night last night.  Got a call from a friend, said she had just broke up with her boyfriend and was having a party, come on out.  Soo... after debating what kind of party she was having, hoping that maybe this would be a little fun, I dress up and go meet her out at the bar.  Her... and two friends she kinda dragged with, in a empty tavern.  I just had to sigh and hope for the best. 

Guess her "ex" is entering the military, against her wishes, and broke up with her, but wanted her to wait for him until after he got back... a tad effed up, no? Sooo... they wanted to bar hop to watch the race (which by the way, I have no idea how you call taking left turns in a circle for 200 laps in a car a sport... sorry, just had to spout that), we ended up going to only one other bar... and a country one at that.  We're flirting back and forth a little bit, just regular stuff, having fun, when she pulls me over and says "I just want to let you know, that I've always had feelings for you, even when I was going out with "so-and-so", but I'm not really ready for sex yet.  But I do want this to go somewhere, I just don't want you to think I'm on a rebound because I broke up with him and am using you to make me feel better." ..... what could I do? I hardly ever see her, haven't seen her for probably 2 monthish, and the first time we go out for a drink she lays that down? Yowsa... I kinda wanted to say "Whoa, slow down chick!", but she was feeling so bad right there I didn't want to let her down any more than she had been. Kind of shitty but what do you do in something like that?  I like her but one, I'm 21 and she's about 29, which really doesn't matter to me age wise, its just the fact that she wants to settle down and I'm just starting to pull shit together in my life, just hitting my prime.  Two, she's got two kids, which I love kids... but good god, I am so not ready to even think about being some sort of father figure at all yet! And three... how can I do this with no sex as a down payment, ya know? Doh, right, just kidding about that last part! Put the knives down... I'm fragile! Soo... I'm kinda lost and hoping I get no other calls today... I really rather not be that post to lean on anymore, I'm too damn exhausted.